Superfluous Baloney

Dammit I'm home. :) Wouldn't be a big deal, would actually be a good thing if I didn't have to deal with my crazy mother. Yeah I know, it's not her fault she comes from three generations of well rooted psychotic tendencies and crazy genes. But HEY that doesn't make it any easier to deal with it! There's a reason I have lived half a continent away for the last six years. Go sell crazy somewhere else, my families all full! :p Ah well, at least I get to experience the normal side of the family (dad's) for another few hours. Hopefully by then my mother will have dropped the grudge (for not calling her the moment my Kansas City ass touched CA soil) and have a decent time considering I have to spend the duration of my trip (5days) with her. It's moments like these I wonder why I have even entertained the thought of returning to the land of fun in the sun. But I can hide from her. Hell, at least I know now there is no making her happy an deven if there was it's not my responsibility anyway! I'M the kid dammit, YOU be the mom for once, okay? Geesh woman, you're 54 soon to be 55, grow up already and stop leaning on your kid. I want to have a life, I will have MY OWN life. Whether you like or not lady. You will not guilt me into being your personal servant enslaved through your prison of guilt. I will move back here at the end of summer, I will find a job that I can turn into a career, and I will NOT let her bring me down. I'm a go getter, a lucky broad, a happy go-lucky chic. Sorry I didn't inherit the victimized, whoa as me, my life sucks gene. (Thank you God for your small favors. :))) By the end of summer I will be a Cali girl once more. It's so long Dorothy, Toto & Kansas.

Yep at work. No bosses around. Of course not. Duh, hello it's 2:45pm on a Friday. Only us little people are required to be stuck here staring at a PC screen waiting for the dumb phone to ring on a FRIDAY. Oh what I wouldn't give to be plucked from the bottom bowels of peonhood and thrust into a role in which I am not only allowed to use my brain, but expected to. How do you score a decent job/career when your resume is chalked full of position titles that include fabulously blah nouns/verbs like coordinator, assistant, attendant. But I have a degree now, I want to be something that includes a word like Generalist, Supervisor, hell why not Manager???? How in the hell do I make that leap though? How do I convince someone I am worthy of making that jump and am able to have independent thoughts and be productive without having a boss looking over my shoulder or telling me to make their phone calls for them?????? Someone explain this to me.